[intro]
I'm fucking happy, 
I've got everything sorted 
every night I can ball with my girl
my career is going perfectly
I work in a factory
And do with passion what I'm good at (I make belts, nigga!)

Sometimes I can't move my spine because of my work
but that's what I'm about
I keep my boss happy, 
everything is perfect, 
I have no stress at all
my whole life is going great

Shit who am I kidding!

I'm floating in my mind
everything is so questionable
insecurity is a big part of my character
sometimes it seems easy, you see smiling.
because in facts I hide my true being with jokes
I don't get it
how am i supposed to feel?
how should i express myself?
you see me smiling with sadness
My parents are divorced
my mother is in the struggle
and it's been a while since I saw daddy
if I had a bad report slapped me with the belt
so every every month I got slapped with the belt
I was just drawing in class
If I got points for drawing I could've easily earned a A
I had no talent
and my dad was a bit strict
he often told me pull yourself together boy be a guy
you look like your mother
Mama told me I looked like him
No wonder I'm so insecure these days


[bidge]


I expose myself
when I bring a track to life
give a pen
and I describe for you what I experience and think
My shit is not meant for TV
I'm not commercial enough
I don't rap like I'm a player
Now Gino suddenly has the most fans
before I did that Gino shit
I wasn't even known as myself
and now I'm suddenly the man?
(huh)
now rappers come to slime
but I still feel like that stupid nigger with the bad grades
many say they understand my tracks
say Fresku you bring real facts
you inspire me with lyrics   
it's nice to get that respect
but I have little money
so it's nicer to get a check
sometimes I sit in front of the tube all day
and almost everyone's clip looks dazzling
Then I think; boy when will you take steps forward
and take the loot, they laugh at you

I'm losing it. 

And then argue with my wife
break up and walk out.
But I already regret when the door closes behind me
she is a sweet girl and I want to be there for her
If this one leaves me I'll jump in front of the train
she says I'm too dominant and she's right
because of my insecurity I will definitely lose this girl
luckily she is a sweet angel compared to my ex
because my ex regularly cheated on me

"You are what you eat", some days I don't eat anything
other days a pizza slice and some chips
I'm looking for balance
my life is without experience
my effort yields nothing and I can't stand this,
when everything goes wrong I'm cooking inside
and only my mom can comfort me.
because of my mother.

But I see my mother crying and I lose my focus
but keep my pride and wipe her tears as they come
I doubt it will get better but will promise her
It'll be okay trust me), she'll just have to believe it
she has nothing left and I hate it.
I want to help her but doubt if I can pay my own rent
I work and work and sometimes I wonder
must I be the type I describe in slave behavior.
I lose all my principles because I suck every day
That's why I gasp when I sleep at night

Mentally I'm weak. 
I make music because that's where my strength lies
this is how I transfer my burdens to my loved ones
so I don't get lost on my path
because I'm confused
I doubt every step because failure is not allowed
So in summary: 

Sometimes I just think
And everything comes at me and then I feel the stress
thats why I have doubts..
The only thing that can stop me now
on the path I walk on my way to success
is my own doubt..